To My Stepson, You Are Irreplaceable

I love you most.

My Eldest step-son made the comment last week that with all the time we had missed in raising he and his brother (because they were with their natural Mother), that, that missed time would now be made up by our 18 month old and 6-month old son who we will raise full time. 

The comment broke my heart. There has not been a moment that we have been without them when there has not been a hole in my heart, a longing for all of my children, step or natural, to be with me. There has not been a day that has gone by where I have not wondered at how their day was going or prayed for their wellbeing. Time missed, and time taken, cannot – and will never, be replaced. 

From the moment I married my husband I loved my step-children like my own, …